her story

I have stories

still being written

day by day

offers page to page

though more often not so inclusive

certain events offer more than others

no doubt

the problem of the matter is which tend to receive more press

I hope that whats written will later help live

to live and to learn

first I must read

looking back oft for the sake of looking

stories were written for my eyes only

I want to write about the good for now

I wish to learn for that too

I met a girl, a long year ago

at a place I adored from day one

I couldn't understand what to do just then

I lived and I learned

a group of amazing people

with ties leading back to shared childhoods

inviting me in with no abandon

quickly we all became friends

I tried to keep feeling like friends to them all

but that was more hard than I thought

for twelve days we tripped

down lakes and down rivers

with 14 in tow, youth trying to grow

the wilderness took over

and nature took hold

I had to keep from being too bold

and at the last night

I sat all alone

pictures of memories

not soon forgotten

and then she came and sat with me

said something stupid

we kissed

glory

red hot faces tempting tongues

then back to the dance

although soon to sleep

and for two weeks we met

saw your friends and mine

until school started up

few hundred miles as the crow would fly

touch was kept, feelings were tucked away

these had no place, so foreign at times

the next time I saw you I had to be calm

a hug was all I could offer

and for weeks I did not know what to do

I had to

I did

and now to hold her tight in my arms

listen to her breathing as we fall into dreams

I don't know whats better

secret are kisses, to keep from display

hidden hallways and shacks, behind walls kept away

how much I like her is hard to measure

so much affecting, than just simple feelings

this beautiful place, coupled with her sweet and amazing grace

what I do know, it's been more than a pleasure

She is my privilege

And that I'll remember

A Soul to Teach

how to say what you ever want to say

dont make up words and place them in sentences

act those sentences out in situations created in your head

gone over and over

like an actor practicing lines in front of the bathroom mirror

but never entering the stage

you can only make it so far by staying behind the curtains

so do as you wish

or wish you could do

its really up to you

make whatever it is you want come true

there is no need to be lonely anymore

read that those who live to love more often give than receive

and this more often causes pain

but its not really to your heart

but into loves pure vanity

you can love so much and question why love is not yours in return

but you know the answer for the sake of the asking

the answer is to keep your heart bound

Ive let mine wander around

its foolish it seems

bodies offer language which is the hardest to read

you speak of different languages, regional dialects, class distinctions

these have the ability to fall into place

be translated and understood

bodies speak the minds truth

a landscape which is far more unique than any other found on earth

a beauty hidden deep in the lines of a face, the edge of a smile

the crease in the forehead giving away a hidden frown

more subtle though, the shift of a knee, the flick of a lash

pull on an ear and play with your hair

these are specific to more than just an area of the earth

to each individual and separate method

I dont know how to search anymore

I dont know if I want to

one thing is said and another is meant

you should have known

why dont you know

so stop

teach my soul

Should I Stay or Should I Go?

The night began on a log cabin porch

Sun drifting lazily under the tree line

The sounds of oven birds and loons to complement the mood

With you by my side it could not have been better

We sat and we watched

With cold beers in hand

Talked travel and good times

And of that which would come

And as the day waned away

The colours came out to play

A lake shimmers purple

Under our northern sunsets glow

We drank and we laughed

Asked beer for life and scratched

You had to etch

Damn corona

And as the day turned to night

With the stars came more friends

More beers

More laughs

This is truly the place to be

To watch you smile is really a gift

But then kicked the beers and a desire to drift

Lets go swimming

And down to the lake we went

Dancing and falling along the path

We reached the beach

Do you want to have fun?

Of course.

So we stripped from our clothes

Left dry on the shore

Ran to the edge and jumped into the black

Chilly, but warm

This was a good idea

Swimming around you and floating together

Shared kisses and smiles while staying above

Its cold now

Out we must run

Share bodies, share heat

We walked to the top, stumbling here and there

A warm shower it seemed would be so nice a treat

The wash house was deemed, a solid retreat

Gain warmth

Your eyes and your smiles belie your main grief

So let me away you to the comfort of home

Your bed and your sheets offer more than just sleep

We can talk until day breaks

And whisper or kiss

Are you awake?

Yes.

Do you want to have fun?

To hug and to hold, is to keep from the cold

For this I am here

I will not turn away

The strange feeling in the morning

As though I knew I must pretend

This is not your desire

And from here you repent

I will shade what I feel

For hopes I can steal

That one morning kiss

Before I dismiss

I should go.

what do you think

So I've got a little problem

sitting sick in bed

wishing it was yours

or mine with you would be fine

I never new that I never had a clue there

are you capable

am I

I lost all your world a long time ago

and when she said

what are we, because its not that

I am so glad you phoned me

it was just what I needed

but then she said sorry

I did not believe her

and the pinch then woke me

no phone near

are you capable

can we all get this high

can this burn all night

can I

....

first to a song

second from anon

yet another

coincidence

its about a girl

paused though, unwanted for the moment

this piece needs some semblance that has no influence

music creates new pathways for thoughts to travel

this I feel needs a more acapella feel

so sounds but those which travel freely

Ive come to my own understanding that it is myself I still understand the least

Ive spent hours training to know many things

become slow to be smooth because smooth is so fast

I can save and prevent, foresee and assess

yet all of this pertains to a less personal means

I have paths wished to follow

and barriers Ive created

loves I founded, and sadly left behind

I wish to be more free

of debt, and of woe

so to this I make plans of where I shall go

two years have passed since I left my first home

the places Ive been have shaped my outlook

the people Ive met have shaped how Ive grown

...looking for lost words has shown my digression

I hold back with my heart

that is all really

I wish to be free from my own sense of fear

to love freely and embrace each pain

these help shape and prove that were human

indeed everyone must know this

for us who romanticize

are destined to hide love behind lies

I will curtail my passions

to watch just one more movie

and know that you will still sit by my side

I can share my arms with you

and will continue to do so

you claim to have bears...

I claim to fight them.