True Nature

This is it

hours before I go once again

A place I fell in love with at first stepping in

waters so pure

and trees of grace and history

ancient in their benevolence

holding true to all that we were

in nature with nurture

a love for whats real

how we have changed

sitting typing I barely fell

so many differences from us to them

masking evolution

an erosion of life

slowly removing all that exists

but this

and what is it

so I must continue down this path I have chosen

learn more , forget less

change can be made through voices oft heard

speak freely of feelings for what nature is

keep pages turning, one place to the next

the world your book is only asking your time

no more than that

its loose leaf and bound

in bindings and covers

pages blank awaiting stories and images for lore

so take to more reading, write what is true

our world is the one thing we cannot ignore

I offer this a phrase I once heard

We are often saying, as human beings,

how we have lost touch with nature.

Yet, in truth we are nature.

So, it is misconstrued what we are trying to say.

Nature is not what we have lost touch with.

We have lost touch with ourselves.

Our true nature.

Travel More, Sit Less

Read More, Watch Less

Explore Everything, Forget Nothing

gateway to forever

so here I am sitting lone so early in the morning

wondering what it is that keeps me in mourning

a loss of what from within

will i ever be aware of it

i feel a yearn for this

a desire to be happy

sitting with an imagined you in my arms

dreaming of a sleep more shared

awake to a pillow and fears

your not here

but far away I know whats real

sitting in the wild, floating with a canoe

a paddle and a pack to keep your world

to be able forever to stay outside

this is the life that I build

can I keep it up

mellow tunes aid

inside a head a slow parade

thoughts marching through

flags flying and banners spread

drums drumming

a beat I can flow with

go with

let ride into the sunset

a daily occurrence

permit me this inference

what oft happen day to day

happenings we can be sure of

sunrise, sunset

the only two

add what you will and take what you want

your personal desires

know those of others

an order to follow

not so direct though

shining boots laced to tucked in greens

here lies no army

only a fighter inside of me

I fight for what I truly yearn for

I crave for your embrace

paddle me home

Elephant Shoes

Summer time lovin, has got feel of the sun beating down,

sweat beading from a nervous forehead

no longer can I do you wrong

I can do no harm

I know how to make you smile

I know how to make you laugh

and holding you allows me the first

talking permits the second

I always hold on for just that one more

Can I hold you again

Kiss you in secret

behind closed doors

in corners out of sight

not out of fright

only the importance of a well kept secret

and how I long for you between those shared moments

monumental is a fine descriptor of the feelings kept at bay

early morning kisses to keep until noon

and again until dusk

in this I can trust though

an embrace I remember my entire day

now we've had less than a week together in the last four

it makes our moments seem like so much more

exploding like stars gone super nova

my mind is blinded by your hold

all else looses importance

I hope to dream of you in a canoe

under stary skies and sun filled days spotted with clouds

A light breeze to softly caress as we paddle into more dreams

a tent on a cliffs edge catching both the setting and rise of a brilliant sun

mesh overhead for a starry nights sleep

with you in my arms

only the sounds of the wild to compliment

I could never wish a better soundtrack

a more perfect place

How I want to be with you now

in a few short days to the East coast we will fly

two and two on a journey to new lands

of whales and coastlines

red beaches and green gables

I dream of holding you in hope that I will be in rem when I awake

and hold true to powerful thoughts in my head

you felt embrace to keep me four days

I await your stories

here in this place

my home for now

so happily shared

....

Elephant Shoes

an old song which knows me best

how to remember

simply put

as a time of day

an explosion in the sky

drop the D

offer me sleep

deny me dreams

lose sight

see me as a mar

more alike to a blight

uplifting

times gone now

a summer that starts after tomorrow

slow down

in search for inspiration

how strange does this innocence seem

I cant tell you what it is that I am feeling

Ive denied it for so long now that I dont want to know what it is anymore

Im not gonna leave but I dont know if I can stay

I get down on myself for no real reason

I cant understand why but this is the reason why I left tonight

I didnt have a place

where will we be, what are we doing

from here and now until then and there

such little time it seems were creating a lie

so I will lay thee down to sleep

tuck up and pull in the sheets

but know that I cant commit

no more than I would want to ask you to do

I would say that we have such a short time together

and in this we should make the greatest out of what we are given

but im burning up

I cant tell you what it really is, I can only try to tell you what it feels like

I see you and inside I smile

keep a straight face on the outside

keep this a secret from everyone who already knows

I can get so caught up in my own thoughts that I push things forward so quickly

I am learning to step back now

let be what can be and not force you into me

with this thought I hope to grow

to be more likely to never feel sorrow

...

lies to self

unfortunate feelings

sated emotion

gorgeous lady

hidden

I keep me out of sight

prevent the end

bring into the light

I try to not care so much

to keep at bay my habits

I fall so quickly so often

I need to step back

pinch my arm

this isnt really a dream

my real life

a piece of a tree floating freely down river

following the ebb and flow of tide and eddy

taking the path of least resistance

but I always find the deadly features

a recirculation

over and over, loosing my breath

cant keep my head above water

pulled down to the green room

an undercut keeps me pinned

praying for a safety line

but it takes too long

what it feels like to drown

watch me burn

ashes floating

skyward

heat pushing high

coming to rest where the wind blows best

a campfire shining in the night

hold you warmth, create a comfort

I could hold you in my arms

sincerely

if you will allow