I want to hold her hand. I want to hold her close and tell her how much she means to me. How much I wish we could continue being. I wish what I wanted was possible.
I wait for anything
a call
a message
a hint of what can become
I will wait
how many more words can i write before my fingers loose strength
Im powered by one thing and one thing only
Im fueled with thoughts of her
Continue to pray that Im not forsaken
I cant loose hope
I wont loose hope
how can a mind be so fully engaged
no other thoughts are allowed in my head
I try and try
assignments sit untouched
I cant concentrate on anything else
pain so complete
my heart is bleeding out for my feet to walk on
stomp what ever is left out
maybe then
but not now
who am I
what am I
I wish she could read my mind
I wish that would change things
and I know
I wish too much
still
I count every second that I havent seen her
every second a thorn through my skin
first steps are big ones
maybe this one is too big