and words they spoke to ease my mind
words of filled with lies
I have to take the long road around to ever get an answer
answers hidden from view
I loved you so very much
cared for you and tried so hard
never returned it would seem
I mean
fuck it I guess
sweep me under your carpet
if thats all I mean to you, then fuck it were so clearly through
It would have been nice though
to end with nice words
say hey, we tried, wrong place, wrong time
but fuck it.

The worth of caring is getting smaller in my heart
to care means to bare means to expose means to hurt
fuck it, I cant stop caring, its who I am
always will be
....
I sadly know that this is written with a fuel too fast
the fire of deceit still burning hot
turn your back, ignore it, its fine
these things always go away in time
Way too much has gone into this, Im done
Your amazing, your beautiful, your full of so much
your thought of your smile still makes me do the same
but now under a carpet, hidding with my shame
fuck the carpet, fuck the dark, fuck me
I have got to get out
I need someone or something
I really do
why not you
what changes you so quickly...
day to day its a different story
why not actually hang out and tell me about it
talk to me
keep me informed, instead of sitting here feeling like my soul is unnaturally deformed

This has been another chapter in:
What The Fuck